But life's funny....Yesterday, suddenly I wanted to post something...I could not decide on wat....wud it be something on the kind of life I am leading in different research institutes? would i compare kolkata with mumbai and bangalore?? or maybe about diff kinds of ppl here??? or a high fundu writing on Bengal politics!!! I thought hard...no....now these things are not coming naturally...then what...a piece on love??? relations?? something philosophical?? about my photos??? no nothing seems appropriate....
I started reading other's blogs....there are really some gr8 bloggers out there....i felt like copying them, stealing their ideas..well, I know I am good at that :p....but not today....may be later...Once in a while one must be original....and with my rare display of originality I had always achieved the rare taste of success....
Two yrs ago I named this "patterns in randomness" and thus its best I write whatever I feel like typing...and I wont be deleting anything (except 4r spelling and grammatical mistakes) after writing....like I regretted after typing the last line in the previous para..but let it be...anyways I don't have any readers!!!
At this moment I am listening to radiohead (from 1.30 pm) and repeatedly 4 songs (The tourist, paranoid android, exit music, climbing the wall)....i think after pink floyd, its this band whose songs I can go on listening again & again.....i like so many other bands but can't really go on and on like this....in fact nowadays I wont even be listening to floyd so much as I used to do during my 1st-2nd yr....I remember how I could go on and on with the song "welcome to machine".....I know its a passing phase......probably it helps getting disconnected....
Is it that I am easily seduced??? coaxed??? then how have i resisted so many stuffs which others hardly can, when given an opportunity??? or is it that i let that happen??
being rude, ignoring has helped me in so many situations, contexts....but not always...probably this can be a way 4r judging how much value I have given to certain ppl....
I have started talking too much...not too much maybe...but i do speak things which I sud not be speaking of...wat is causing this???? do I crave 4r attention??? do I feel isolated??? am i complete moron??? probably not.... is there a sense of pride....false pride..that whatever u speak, u need not care..is that the case???? do ppl know now how to coax me??? Is it that I am easily seduced??? coaxed??? or is it that i let that happen??....same question???? answers???
I feel like doing something creative...no 'creative' is a wrong word....i thing something unconventional but nice...not repulsive....what can i do....i got ideas but i feel lazy all the time....i got camera....but i don't feel smart when with the camera :( .......i dnt really want to try unconventional stuff with it in front of hundreds of eyes......
Yorke shouting through my headphones..."slow down slow down slow down" maybe be I am typing too fast......i should slow down...or maybe I sud stop...better i close my eyes and enjoy the song....written a lot...it wud be interesting to read all of it in one go......lets see how it looks...watever....i wont be changing anything....
i am having this terrible urge to include one of my pics...maybe i sud always post a pic....lets see which i feel like posting....
I call this pic "ek jhaank ecchedana"....translation maybe something like "flying freely"....
Is this pattern random??? made by free particles??? probably not...they still follow laws...laws of physics...what if newton had not discovered all these laws??? would then they wud have been free???? ;p
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