My Football Articles

Analysis articles

Indian National Team

Nehru Cup 2012 : New Era in Indian Football Starts Now
(Tactical Preview of Indian team under Wim Koevermans)
Published by : The Rational Pie (Also published in Sportskeeda by TRP)

Indian Football – Defensive Strategies Against Syria In Nehru Cup 2012
(Defensive tactics by Indian team after their first match under Wim Koevermans)
Published by : Indian Football Network

Nehru Cup Finals 2012 – India Vs Cameroon : A Tactical Preview
(Tactical preview of the India vs Cameroon match in the Nehru Cup finals, 2012)
Published by : Indian Football Network

Indian Tactics Against Cameroon In The Nehru Cup Finals
(Tactical review of the India vs Cameroon match in the Nehru Cup finals, 2012)
Published by : Indian Football Network

Arrows - I League club (Indian U-23 developmental squad)

18th May, 2011 - Indian Arrows: A closer look at their progress
(Season review of Arrows' first season)
Published by : Indian Football Blog

22nd May, 2012 - Tactical Changes That Brought Success To The Indian U23 Pailan Arrows
(Tactical analysis of Arrows' strategies after sacking of Sukhwinder Singh)
Published by : Indian Football Network

27th May, 2012 - Pailan Arrows Season Review 2011-12
(Season review of Arrows' second season)
Published by : The Hard Tackle

Other I League Clubs

14th September, 2012 - How Bangalore lost I League representation

(A review of the factors contributing to Bangalore club HAL SC's relegation in 2011-12 season)
Published by : The Rational Pie (The article was also published in Sportskeeda by TRP)

International Football

25th September, 2012 - The Total Goal

(An article on Holland's total football and underachievement. The article revolves round the first goal scored by Holland in 1974 World Cup finals)

Published by : Backpage Football

5th March, 2013 - Can the Spanish Clubs make it to the Champions League Quarter Finals?
(An article discussing the chances of the four La Liga teams of making it to the Champions League Quarter Finals after a disspointing first leg)
Published by : Backpage Football

Tournament Previews

19th September, 2012 - Arthur Papas' boys can be the giant killers
(Federation Cup 2012 preview of Arrows)
Published by : Fever Pitch

Photo Articles

18th May, 2011 - Indian U15 Players In Action
(Photos from Dallas Cup, USA, where Indian U15 participated)
Published by : Indian Football Network

U-22 Indian Football Team In Pictures
(Photos of Indian U22 squad members which played in AFC U22 championship)
Published by : Indian Football Network

3rd September, 2012 : Nehru Cup 2012 : Photos Of Indian Football Team
(Photos of Indian National Team who won the Nehru Cup, 2012)
Published by : Indian Football Network

From a fan's perspective

4th April, 2011 : The Day I Met The Indian Arrows
(My experience of watching and meeting the Arrows' for the first time)
Published by : Indian Football Network

18th July, 2012 : Bhaichung Or Baichung!
(A humorous take on different versions Bhaichung Bhutia's name's spelling)
Published by : Indian Football Network

Indian Football - General article

28th January 2013 : How AIFF's reports misled the whole country
(A report on a series of misleading reports from AIFF and subsequently from most of the media across India which created a false impression of Indian women's team winning against Netherlands' women's team.)
Published by : Indian Football Network

May 2012 issue (Page 35) : Bangalore Football - A Feature
(A short feature about football in Bangalore with focus on I League)
Published by : Barefoot - Indian Football Magazine

Player Biographies / Interviews

24th January 2013 : Prathamesh Maulingkar : A slow but steady rise
(Prathamesh Maulingkar's profile)
Published by : Indian Football Network



29th November 2011 : Player Biography : Shabbir Ali – Only Footballer To Win Dhyan Chand Award

(Shabbir Ali's biography based on an exclusive interview)
Published by : Indian Football Network

News Updates

30th September 2011 : Ankit Sharma Signs A Professional Contract With Spanish Club
Published by : Indian Football Network

14th November 2011 : Exclusive Package For Football Films In The International Film Festival Of India
Published by : Indian Football Network

26th May 2012 : India U-22 Wins Two Practice Matches Against Bangalore Super Division Teams
Published by : Indian Football Network

16th July 2012 : Chance To Interact With Chitra Gangadharan, Member Of Asian All-Star Team And Ex-Indian Captain
Published by : Indian Football Network

12th May 2013 : Traveling fans from Mohun Bagan humiliated in Goa
Published by : Indian Football Network

Sportsmeet Media Release

22nd July 2012 : Engaging, educative, and interactive SportsMeet July session
Published and distributed as - Sportsmeet Event Media Release

19th August 2012 : Report: SportsMeet August
Published and distributed as - Sportsmeet Event Media Release

A Ray of Hope

Ray

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One of the best things about traveling alone is that you open up more, you interact more with strangers and if you are lucky you might even befriend them. Last August (2010), i made few trip in different cities alone, and yes I did interact with few interesting people. I saw more and felt even more. I had different kinds of experiences, ranging from pleasant to life threatening. However, this post is not to describe all that. I would just tell you guys about a man I met. An old man. A man who talked and I listened. A lonely American called Ray, who's battling cancer, making trips to Germany for treatment. Here's how I met him and what interested me.

I was in the Innsbruck (Austria) train station, waiting for my train to Salzburg. This was the most unplanned part of my trip coz I had not planned for Austria beforehand, and I was not very sure what exactly to do in Salzburg. I was sitting on a bench, an old man came, sat there, looked at his tickets and asked me whether the train to Vienna will leave from this platform. I knew that I was gonna take the same train, but confirmed that from another boy sitting in the adjacent bench. Then after a pause, suddenly the old man told me how sexy the 'lady in black' is. He was definitely right, the lady was a typical 'East European babe' we see in the fashion shows, more than 6 feets, brunette hair and stunning looks. However, I was extremely tired, and was not too interested in appreciating the lady in details or continuing the conversation, especially with an old guy. I just smiled and agreed. He continued more about the lady and how even at this age, the lady gets him attracted. Politely, I also agreed about these virtues of East -European women. Later, he was also talking with the other boy, and told him to look at the lady instead of somewhere else. All I could conclude, was that this guy is an old pervert and I should make sure that I take a different compartment when the train comes. Later, he asked about my nationality and told me that he got a sikh friend. Talked about him. Told that he likes those Indian breads (Tandoori Rotis) and some curries. We discussed bit more about our food. Then he talked about few more things, asked about me, where I am traveling etc. At the end, when the train came, I decided I will sit with him, I anyways didn't had anything to do and the trip was for 2-3 hours.

In the train, he talked about many things. He was not that sort of guy who sticks to a theme, he loved talking many different stuff. After random stuff like Europe, America, India, George Clooney etc., I asked him why he's here? Travel? He said, its for treatment. I didn't asked anymore. I later asked about his children. He revealed he is not married or having any children. he stays alone. He has a sister, whom he meets some times. Then he told me he has a cancer - Prostrate cancer. He told me bits about his illness and the problems with the treatment. He considers Germany to be better for treatment. He is spending all this saving for this. Then I got to know about his job (now he is retired) - he was a public bus driver!!! I just thought of Indian bus drivers - can they afford going for such a journey for treatment? Then he talked about his childhood - He had many siblings. Didn't had much education. As a teenager he started some whitewash job or some job which requires filling of holes in walls - something like that, I didn't understood properly. What I did understood is that its something which would be considered a 'lowly job' in my society. I was amazed the way he described the details, the skills involved, how he could have made a career out of it, if he had been more careful!!!! Then he also talked about his girlfriends particularly one of them. It didn't work out enough for a marriage, he is happy to be independent. All this time I was feeling strange, a stranger recollecting his memories in front of me - never happened before to me - I guess, sometimes you can better express in front of strangers. Again he drifted to his present life. What he likes to eat, what's forbidden by the doctors etc. He watches movies, a lot of WWE!!! Then he described certain WWE moves - I was just imagining this old guy all alone, sitting in his couch watching WWE, maybe imitating few moves!!! Then one of those moments came, where he talked about his loneliness, his regret of not marrying, of not having his girl friend as wife, of not having his own children. Advised me to marry!!!

Apart from these, he described certain part of his treatment in proper immunological understanding. He even thinks about some of these problems, I was amazed by certain question of his. I just can't imagine an bus driver with that kind of education even coming close to this. Maybe he has too much idle time. But still.......

Before going, I gave him an Indian currency as a token. He hardly escaped my thoughts when I left him in the train. I kept thinking about Ray, an 70+ man, living alone lonely, diagnosed with life threatening disease, doctors in USA had not shown much hope, still this ex-driver dugs out all his savings, goes for multiple European tours for treatment hoping to prolong his life, his loneliness. I have heard an read lots of stories of inspiration, love for life etc., the story of Ray will definitely have a special place in my heart. I will never know the end, but I kind of like it that way.

Punching Bag - An excuse to punch

The Punching Bag

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One can't deny that from time zero, we have been striving hard to get rid of all 'bad guys'. There is a considerable amount of space devoted in our consciousness for describing, delimiting, defining and identifying such bad guys. And of course that makes perfect sense, after all if the goal is to have a perfect, serene, peaceful, transparent society, then that's necessary...you need to identify and eradicate the 'bad lot'. Then what's perplexing is that we have hardly made advances towards achieving such a goal. True, that we have developed better methods, laws, etc..but then these are being countered. There's this saying in bengali "niyom ache jokhon, niyam er faak o ache" (if laws are there, there are loopholes too).....anyways, I feel I needn't try hard to convince that there are too many bad things lurking around us (not that we are not a part of those things) and we also know most sources of these, which can be surprising considering all the effort in trying to control these.....
Its a cycle....try controlling them...they bounce back....and again you try...Every year the demon is killed by the goddess and again comes back to be killed....the cycle continues....the demon keeps coming back like a punching bag and gets punched and comes back....looks like some unknown force is putting it back to its original position...
I am a believer of "if it keeps on persisting, it has some importance" school of thought and so I wonder.....

I have heard expressions like -
"they always find a way, an individual will always capable of evading everything"
"humans are instinctively criminal, its just fear which keeps most of them dormant"

Well, these rather dramatized statements doesn't say much...there are two main things here - why is these rather undesirable elements bounce back and what may be this unknown force which allow them to bounce back????? I don't intend to explore psychology of criminals....I would rather take an easy path....I would try to imagine a criminal free society..lets see

Think of this serene and peaceful society where crime doesn't need to be suppressed as it has been eliminated...so no more 'badguys'...no more villians.....no more 'your favourite whipping boy' or the punching bag....so, no more excuses to monopolise oil supplies.....no more blaming others for your misfortune....no more saving the damsel in distress....waste of all arsenals.....no blackmailing....Looks like so many other things will evaporate with crime...Do we actually need villians? do we need to keep them so that whenever we need them, we just have to point at them...but when we need them? do they somehow make our life easy?!!!
I don't know about our life, but surely I can remember countless movies where villians make director's/scriptwriter's life much easier....remember when the leading lady had to make up her mind between two equally good suitors, and then suddenly one turns out to be a person who had actually killed her father or may be who is marrying her for money...in short a villian...a much needed villian...no more probs for the heroine or the audience...of course the scum would be taken care of by the hero, who would beat him into pulp before being compassionate.....
or remember when there's everything perfect for a break-up between our hero and heroine, and the story is so complicated that its unlikely that this can be avoided in normal circumstances or by proper discussions (which anyway won't be value for your ticket's money), so now there only one person who can save the day; yeah here comes the super-villain....now its easy...the macho hero needs to save her girl from getting raped and then they can live together happily......
Without them how can you point to a group of forest guerilla's for being the reason for not allowing development.....now suppose you need lot of oil (you got a hell lot of cars and other such stuffs) and you also got nice fighter planes, ships, nuclear missiles...what would you do? Well, maybe if it were some 300-500 years ago (maybe even 100), you would have attacked middle east...but no, you also need to keep your reputation intact and that's a problem...that's a price you need to pay for being hypocrite...tch tch..sad.....well, you are saved...coz there are villains who urgently need to be get rid of....yup, just attack Saddam and laden....you would be laden with oil!!! But, seriously, you have also done nice thing by eliminating them...it would also be a great injustice if you have all the capabilities but you don't do anything....and of course, the cost of such a mission would be enormous so you also need to have some profit from it.
So, coming back to our original discussion, yup it seems villains are precious....we all take get advantages from such villains....... whenver something messes up, just point the finger....cool...
We are cricket lovers, right?...so we have azhar/sachin/saurav/rahul/Dhoni being abused coz they (one of them, who it is doesn't matter) won the toss, elected to bowl and of course lost the game quite embarrasingly.....so they question is why they chose to bowl...well as far I can guess, it is quite likely that this have been a team decision, I am sure the captains don't decide such things instantly during toss...teams discuss all these together....but anyways it always a nice feeling to hold someone by his neck and abuse him, convince ourselves that we are doing this for a valid reason. So, essentially we all have our favorite whipping boys in different contexts. I imagine it will be difficult to sustain our ideals, heroes, feeling of greatness, pride or even normal life without villians....Looks like its the society and all its goodness which had nurtured crime....no good without the bad!!! the unknown force is not around us, but within us...we constantly need to reincarnate the demons. So, every hero needs a villain, every goddess needs a demon, every Batman needs a joker, every opposition needs a ruling party and every ruling party needs a opposition, every disaster needs a terrorist....every you needs me and every me needs you
Next time you see the above pic, spare a thought for the demon, who repeatedly needs to be evoked and stabbed to keep the greatness alive....

Trapped within myself

" Liberated yet? "

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Certain events lead to certain thoughts. Nothing surprising in that. Well, why I need to write something surprising......So, now I am writing this, yet another more personal posts (like the last one)....well, in some sense all the posts have germinated from very personal experiences and feelings but I try to mask them by giving more global appeal!!! But sometimes global thinking becomes synonymous with self thinking....when you can't stop thinking about the events surrounding....chronology of the events doesn't matter...past, present, future all can be served in the same dish......

So, this post is direct consequence of the things happening to me right now, which includes the movie I have just seen and the kind of tune i am listening to....I won't say what are they.....

I am happy with the way I am....yes, reasonably happy....and because being happy is a relative state, I would go on to mention that the way I am is different from what I was before, say during school days and early graduation and yes I am much happier with myself (Doesn't mean I am happier with events surrounding me, but the way I carry myself makes me feel better)....But the problem lies elsewhere...although I am happy, I realize it won't lead me to a happier or equally happy state.....downfall is eminent.....and I need to consider so many things even before deciding whether I have the license to feel happy is amazing......where, when, how this irritating habit came is difficult to point out, however surely it comes as a baggage with all the properties I have acquired which makes be feel better...paradox

Although I feel I am more of 'the lonely kind', One part of me loves being with people, which is ok, however then you need to see yourself from other people's point of view, otherwise u can't be with people (Maybe u can, with practice)...here comes the most depressing part....when I see myself from other's point of view - that includes people who hardly talk to me; what I see is disturbing.......
Everybody has diverse opinion about me...well, I normally pride myself for that...being different for different person....customizable personality...kind of an achievement.....but now it seems opinion about me spans from one extreme to the other...take everyone's opinion, add them and I am almost everything....Most of it is not accidental, but has been built by me...How???? Well, my coldness, being too (over) considerate have contributed to it.....Tell me things which are not true, I won't react!!!! Think whatever you want to, I will rarely correct you....and thus, being nice can bring your downfall....did i say downfall? Why? What's the problem? Well, it makes me too careful and aware of myself all the time.....with every person, I would think 'ok , he/she thinks that about me, so thats how I should behave'.....it makes the head so heavy....and sometimes you think why they think this about you, why can't they think differently, why can't people understand simple things, why blah blah blah........this makes it more difficult, this is rare but potent........Its so difficult to be free...always being aware of others...as if i have caged myself!!!! Sometimes I can even forget who thinks correctly or incorrectly, I have heard about split personality...here I sometimes have multiiple splits!!! Even though I am happy with my present state; happy, free, satisfied...whatever adjective you want to use; but this very thing about me have trapped me somewhere....I can't be free....and i can't break free, as i don't know what to break!!!

So, what now? Nothing.....This is how I am...One thing which holds very true from childhood...lack of objection when it comes to myself....the best thing is to know and realise how am I....then I guess, with practice, disturbances would be disturbed and the peaceful chaotic state of my mind will be restored...........

Freaked out

"Appearances Can Be Deceptive"

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Let's have another of my truly random posts.....I am sleepy..very sleepy...loaded with work....lost my Sony Ericsson mobile few hours back.....my ankle swelled up....experiments not working......don't know what to do now....so lets blabber randomly!!!

I wish I was at home now....not because I miss home but because I want to get out of here now. Being conscious hurts me lot....I wish I could stay in a different state of mind...would love to have a totally blank mind or maybe just sleep....maybe that's why people take drugs or alcohol....i would love to be in a drunken state.....

I wish I had more friends here..... discredit is mine...i had not given much effort initially... I feel I have nothing to do as I have too much work to do....I wish I had something better to write....now that many people actually read this, its such an embarrassing post.....but then its a honest reflection of my state of mind

Certain people and interaction makes you think. Its common to realize how you have misjudged someone, sometimes you may also realize that how your own appearance have deceived others (I experience that all the time - People just seem to assume 'things' about me or what I am thinking about them - mostly they are wrong), however worst is when you realize that you aren't capable of things you thought you can do....in other words when "you have managed to deceive yourself".... I like this idea, people who always talk about assesing oneself etc. seems to focus less on this...the point is how would you know that whatever you thought about yourself is true ....when i said before that mostly people's assumptions on me is wrong, that's totally based on my bias; it maybe so that they are right and I am wrong...anyways its difficult but one must try to have a clear realisation of this...I try sometimes.... For me even if I realize that I am not capable of doing a 'bad' thing (which is a good thing after all), I would be upset because I thought I can manage that..... with such realization comes dilemmaa.....and then this dilemma crushes you and you can never be happy with your decision...no perfect decisions here .... What to do....it ain't too bad if you think how bad can things get and how lucky you have been in certain cases...after all "Life's a compromise between best and worst possibilities"

Choices or lack of it.....

"Directionless"

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'Taking sides' is probably synonymous to 'the process of survival'. I need not give extreme examples of war, politics, policies, sacrifices etc., just look at yourself, how you grew up, how you have reached here, all your successes and failures, and everything and anything you remember; and you will see how often you have happily or unhappily taken sides. Think more and you will discover that you have taken sides even without knowing. I don't know whether you agree with me, of course, your experiences may differ. So, let me make it more personal so as to avoid all conflicts and disagreements. Yes, I have made my choice, "I won't be making too many generalizations in this post". Lets see how far I succeed.

Looking back, I must say, I have been sucked into the world of choices and decisions early. Decisions which I didn't want to make. Choices which weren't choices at all. Its unfair to say that life would have been better without those decisions and so called choices, probably life would have been much worse. But that doesn't mean that those were justified. However, it is a mistake to speculate on alternatives and how life would have shaped in their presence, I hardly had alternatives. To be fair, I need to confess, with my kind of mind, conscious, judgmental abilities, I am ill-equipped to make choices or take a strong stance. I am your worst team mate in any debate competition. One sided thinking is so difficult for me. With all those situations, exercising a choice seems like loosing out on something. Something which I value. Even if things turn out so well because of such a decision, sooner or later, the dejection of a choice will come back to haunt me. Best thing for me is to probably not to make a choice at all. Let things flow as it is. But letting things flow itself is a decision. Probably there is nothing called taking no side or being neutral. Neutrality is also a side. Variety of people take this side - People who flourish by remaining neutral, hypocrites, people who don't believe in any of the choices, people who are always in dilemma, people who don't want to lose anything, and there can be many more reasons (which I can't think now). In my case I can think of many situations where I can be fitted into one or more of these categories. But now I only want to think about situations which are less guilt-laden (after all this is a more personal post, I can't be too sarcastic and critical!!!).

People who have the upper hand, people who sort of dominates you (people, authorities or anything) gives you a feeling - "You got a situation, You have to change that, We will help you, Here's are your choices, Feel free to exercise your choice." Wow that sounds so good! Lets dissect each statement. "You got a situation" - Is it? or is it that 'You' got yourself into some mess or maybe you achieve something by changing my situation (something can be mental pleasure or pleasure of authority). or may be yes I am into this situation, but hey, have I asked for your intervention??? "You have to change that" - Ok maybe I am into a mess, maybe I have better opportunities, but do I really want to change it? or maybe I have to change it just because you want it to be changed. Why is it that your suggestions seems like a command? "We will help you" - Thanks, but no thanks. I will certainly ask for your help, when needed. Oh, so if I don't take your help you are going to make this worst, isn't it? Ok then maybe I should take your help. Hey, what kind of help is this? no surely no. I have to? shit. Your help is irreversible isn't it. "Here's are your choices, Feel free to exercise your choice" - Yeah, for some reason I can see only one choice, so technically there's no choice, lets call it fate, fate which you have carefully chosen for me. Ok, sorry, I was being rude, now I can see those choices. Let me take a good look at them. Hmmm. ok. ok. what? Well...ummm...well, why I have to choose one of these? I am sure I can work out to accomodate both. Yes, I can. It is possible. What? I can't? I can , really. oh, so you can't? Authority, ego, ....??? So, what I am I to do? rebel? so that the hands of gods are withdrawn from my head? So, that I am stoned to death? Stoned? how come? I am not in some medieval society. Well, stones made of words which makes your living an impossibilty.
So, in short the choice were the following:-
1) Perish from inside, invisibly but atleast save yourself from social embarrasment and from the rage of the gods upon whom you are dependent.
2) Get burned and stoned. Doesn't matter whether you survive or die. It will feel the same. Held your head high, but only for an instance, for the shame inflicted on you would not let it be so.
translation-
1) Survive like a creep, but no one will know.
2) Die with embarrassment.
Some choices..ha....

Later of course, you are on your own. Now you can make your choices. Now you are the free lion, out of your pride, free, ready to take over something new. But, the damage has already being done. Now you have limited thinking and resources, you have been engineered. The best you can do is to keep the process alive. Take decisions and make choices for things you can dominate. And the wheel keeps moving. Create a whirlpool and it will only suck, what else do you expect?

Surely, I am being melodramatic. But that's done on purpose. How else would I describe all these? without being unreal? If I hold on realities of life, how would I convince you that this is what happenning with me and probably with you too. And you won't feel it because mostly these are inflicted by things you believe and love. All these happen to you when you are too busy with seemingly more important things, things which would not matter to you except for the fact they take away your attention and probably pain. Morphine takes away pain, not the injury. Life's not too dramatic, all these things happen in much subtle ways. Things just happen routinely, invisibly encompassing all these dramatic material, just as if it were normal, just like monsoon every year , sundays, festivals, road accidents, terrorist attack.
Everything is normal, not worth suprising us...atleast me. Its about getting into a habit. A habit - for being helpless, being blackmailed- by whoever capable of - parents, friends, relatives, lovers, bosses, government, terrorists, aliens etc; being able to acknowledge the fact that the choices you have taken are not taken because you wanted them but you were compelled to take them. And once this habit becomes a habit, life becomes easy, you appreciate art, sports and any worthy or unworthy thing which must be appreciated to be accepted. This habit slowly and selectively erases memories. And the haunting day dreams becomes infrequent and hopefully vanishes. And with this you get the habit of saying "Life Rocks".

Getting magnetised

"Tryst of opposites"

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Remember when your parents told you "School e sudhu bhalo cheleder sathe bondhutto korbe, baje cheleder sathe ekdom misbena" (In school, make friends only with nice guys, don't mingle with bad guys)...of course, the definitions of good and bad were nicely laid down to you.....in this regard, we kids belonged to two categories - 1) those who followed exactly what was told to them and 2) those who disregarded it....most of us don't exactly know where we belonged coz there were few students who can be 'by definition' be categorised into good or bad, but mostly were the individuals to stand in LoC, and the borderline is so blurred that you can hardly identify which side is your prospective friend......Well, these are really old stories and memories are so fragmented that its even difficult to contemplate those moments...Then why I bring them up?

Well, I was thinking of something else....about the different kinds of ppl we meet now....there is this very irritating type who will always react negatively to good news....some react like this when the news is about others (and not their's) while the other kind specifically reacts like this when its their's but will be surprisingly overjoyed when the news is of someone else's.....The first kind is probably well understood, they are the typical jealous kind, and so I really don't want to discuss them . However, the second kind is more interesting. For me they are quite repulsive, but not for everyone, they are liked by many, in fact, they are quite popular within their circles...and why won't they be....after all when u have achieved something, these 'types' will be the first to congratulate you, they are the ones who will keep giving u superiority complexes....and what happens when u go and give them a good news???? well, u have to listen to all the apprehensions, concerns...which actually gives u an opportunity to chip in with advices, to be the all knowing big brother...and that makes u even happier, the feeling that u did something good and the greatness that brings with it is just ecstatic....so why i don't like them???

Coz I am so conscious about such things that I will always feel and realise (sometimes wrongly too) the person in front of me celebrating my success fakely...all those kind words...whether they mean anything at all.....that's still ok...but the worst is the other part...u go to the person and tell that hey man see u actually did well, u got the interview call, congrats....bcoz the sucker had told you earlier that there's not even 1% chance of his getting there, now he has to justify himself...so now he reacts..."oh really, well well i think these ppl randomly call ppl for interviews, what a shame, if I can get anybody can get. Its just an accident. Now still the interviews are left. No chance. It would be an embarrasment and waste of time & money to go there. lets see what to do. Don't spread the news. ok?" after this you are expected to boost the person. Tell good things about him..and keep on blah blahing.....I simply can't do it..maybe i start a bit but to continue...takes a lot out of me.....I guess maybe with girls I can linger it a bit more!!! And then there are tough nuts to crack..those who will start telling u "how do u know? what makes u believe in me??? i would know better how bad was the exam, isn't it???" well, then sometimes u feel that u did a crime...why in the first place I discussed it? And if u leave without a single word, then u feel guilty...u think " I should have consoled the poor chap. He is in lots of pressure, I should be more responsible...I am so unsocial..etc etc etc...." and if u keep on lingering around such ppl, u get the idea that this is the proper way to react, all sucessful ppl do that....which at this moment I disagree, I guess there are better ways..... U will also find really good achievers who will talk like as if they are the worst...in whatever they excel, they want us to believe that they dnt have the talent for it...well, some ppl say its just a way for them to be nice and not arrogant...i feel actually if u keep on behaving like this, its more arrogant coz u r making the other person feel that without any effort u can reach great heights and as if u have the 'inborn' talent to excel...of course on the other hand if u blabber too much then u wud be a laughing stock.....probably thats why ppl who think they can't strike the right balance move to the "I don't know how it happened" side.....

Now let us turn back...its time to justify why I evoked our parent's teaching at the beginning...Its more to do with why I find the above mentioned ppl repulsive and its also a lot to do with the idea of company...company of ppl, as in companionship etc....it also has to do with magnetism and temporary and permanent magnets!!!!!
Why were our parents so concerned? Coz at that age, we were are so malleable that we can become like all those 'bad' kids and move in the wrong direction...but what about this age, aren't we malleable now? probably not as much as those times, but nevertheless, I believe that we aren't immune to the effects of company....the ppl we interact with can really change us, mold us a little, not too much may be...in ways which is difficult to perceive in short interval of time but can show effects after long and chronic exposure of such company!!! To cut a long story short, positive ppl can still make u like them and same goes for negative company....so what happens if u keep on interacting with all these pessimists around??? would u lose urself or would u be able to change them??? so how u know that ur noble intentions of 'being a friend in need' or 'being there when it matters' is actually helping ur friend rather than harming urself??? difficult decision...Once (maybe 8 yrs ago) a person told me how optimist and positive ppl are like magnets...and all other ppl have this ability to be magnetised...when magnets interacts with them they also get magnetised and with good enough interaction, they themselves can be magnets...then came the word of caution - if u are just magnetised, u are like a temporary magnet, u need to be a permanent magnet...if u at this point try to convert someone to a magnet, u urself will lose ur magnetic properties...first be the permanent magnet and then think of changing the world....i must say I was very impressed with this analogy, not because I understood the depth but because it sounded so nice...however, now I have been appreciating those words more in its right spirit....I don't believe that I am a sort of permanent magnet, and not only that, I also believe not everybody is worth helping and advising to...these ppl actually want to say more than listen....and by saying all this awful things about themselves (using irritating {for me} terminology) they just want more sympathy...its just a habit....a habit with has formed coz ppl accepted that behavior....yes, an impact of the company...so when u, inspite of being irritated, show ur compassion, u actually encourage them to do so......the worst part is that they maybe be ur friends, parents, relatives, lovers and ppl whom u really care and can't avoid....apart from saving my 'magnetic' properties, i don't want to encourage them to act like that and that's probably my way of helping them...atleast I don't want to blame myself for being part of a company which led someone to hit the turf hard....even though its weird, but somehow its true that "You talk like a loser, and loser will you be, talk about winning, atleast you will know how to win" But I also believe that to decide whether a company is good or bad for u, u need to spend time there to decide for urself...u need to work hard to make ur own set of 'definition' rather than follow the conventional ones....